So was I.
I watched all of that.
***
Three weeks later, Lucas sat at the kitchen table eating Sunday pancakes.
Too thick, as always.
“He wants to come to my game Saturday.”
I set down the syrup.
“Do you want him there?”
Lucas nodded.
“Do you want him there?”
“Yeah.”
“Then he should come.”
He studied me.
“No.”
“He’s still not my dad-dad.”
“You don’t have to decide what to call him.”
“You won’t be mad?”
Lucas went back to his pancakes.
I reached across the table and straightened his napkin: old habits.
Then I looked at the syrup bottle, the crumbs, and the plate he’d left crooked beside his elbow.
I left them exactly where they were.