The human heart, I thought, was not designed for contradictions this sharp.
“What is his name?” I asked.
The question surprised everyone, including me.
Melinda looked down at the baby.
“Elliot,” she whispered.
Elliot.
A gentle name.
A name Connor would never have chosen on his own. He preferred names that sounded like surnames, names that belonged on office doors and engraved watches. I wondered if Melinda had fought for Elliot. I wondered if she had named him in some private act of softness, some attempt to make one decent choice inside a thousand wrong ones.
“Elliot,” I repeated.
The baby stirred, as if hearing himself.
My throat tightened.
Years ago, before everything went wrong, Connor and I had kept a list of baby names in the notes app on my phone. He had treated it like a joke at first, adding names of athletes and movie characters just to make me roll my eyes.
