She absorbed the words like someone who had heard worse in private.
“No,” she said quietly. “I was never happy. I was relieved, then scared, then ashamed. Those aren’t the same thing.”
The honesty in that sentence stayed with me.
I wanted to hate her cleanly.
I could not.
Not yet.
Maybe not ever.
That did not mean forgiveness. People confused those too often. Forgiveness was not a door someone else got to demand you open. Sometimes it was not even a door. Sometimes it was a wall you stopped throwing yourself against.
“Kirsten,” Kenneth said, “we should end this conversation for now.”
He was right.
My meeting had already begun without me. My patients still needed me. My life outside this room still existed, even if it now felt like it belonged to someone else.
I looked at Elliot one more time.
He slept with one fist tucked beneath his chin.
