“It’s red.”
She laughed softly.
Then silence returned.
After a while, she set the cup aside.
“Ethan?”
“Yeah?”
“Are you doing this because you feel responsible?”
The question was inevitable.
I had been waiting for it.
“No,” I said.
She studied me carefully.
“I feel responsible for some things,” I continued. “For leaving without really looking at what was happening. For not being present. For letting my own grief become an excuse to disappear. But that’s not why I’m here.”
“Then why?”
I looked at her.
“Because when I saw you in that hallway, I realized the divorce ended a legal marriage, not what you mean to me.”
Her eyes glistened.
“That’s a dangerous thing to say the night before surgery.”
“I know.”
“You can’t promise a future because you’re scared of losing the past.”
“I’m not promising a future.”
“Then what are you promising?”
