“Are you ever going to get married?” he asked.
“I don’t know.”
“Would you have more kids?”
“Maybe.”
He considered it carefully.
“That would be okay, as long as you didn’t forget me.”
I sat beside him.
“I searched for you before I knew you were missing. I will never forget you.”
“Promise?”
“Promise.”
He smiled.
“I love you, Dad.”
“I love you too, son.”
After he fell asleep, I walked onto the porch.
A photograph of my brother and his son sat beside my bed inside—both of them smiling at a baseball game, unaware of what was coming.
I sometimes wondered whether my brother would approve of every choice I made.
He had been gentler than me.
More forgiving.
I no longer believed forgiveness was required for healing.
My nephew did not need me to excuse the people who hurt him.
He needed me to believe him, protect him, and remain present long after the courtroom emptied.